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Ladies and gentlemen, here I am again, with a heavy heart, looking for solace in the act of putting pen to paper.🥹(poetic bae) My emotions are scattered, my heart is heavy, and there are bees dancing in my belly.😭Why, you might ask. It is not about blaming, but about understanding my origins. Let me explain 🥲My parents are ambiverts, but my mother is more introverted, and it appears that I have inherited her mannerisms😆

Despite her introverted nature, I have witnessed my mother confidently leading the women's choir despite the fact that she is not a singer or performer😍My sister, too, has demonstrated remarkable confidence, performing as the lead actress in a drama without a script or captivating an audience at the school fellowship with her singing😂Even my younger brother could sway opinions in debates without using facts, simply by being confident🙏🏼❤️

As I write this, I am preparing to defend my final year project in front of my university's vice chancellor and department heads. I never asked for this project; it feels like it was imposed on me🙄💔Seven semesters of hard work later, instead of enjoying my final semester as Nollywood advertised, I am buried in project research. What a life it is!💔

The anxiety is palpable; since Friday, my left hand has been trembling with nervousness. My topic, mental health, was originally my choice. However, my project supervisor, who seemed too good to be true, was forced to resign, and my new supervisor has shifted my focus to his own interests🥹tchew. So now I am defending a topic that is not really mine, with only a week to prepare notes and gather information for my presentation🥹💔

Despite everything, I am not particularly nervous(a little) but then ,I have a legacy to uphold, even if it seems pointless😂or not important right now 😭😂The worst they can do is ask me to restart or change my topic, which is not a big deal given that I have not really started anything🥲What about insults? Well, they can't kill me. Have you ever heard that someone died of insult???🥲So wish me luck as I approach this milestone in less than 24 hours. I will keep you updated on how things go❤️ pray for me 🥹

But for now, I must return to my studies. I feel guilty for talking so much, but sharing my emotions with you has given me some relief. Thank you for your time and attention😊

Media I have recently consumed:

I recently watched the film "The Idea of You (2024)," starring Anne Hathaway and Nicholas Galitzine. Nicholas' gaze speaks volumes, a yearning gaze that strikes a deep spiritual chord with me 😭😭😭I am not even joking 😭I am now a devoted fan, eager to see anything he appears in. The film, inspired by Harry Styles, is about a meet-cute and steamy romance, with a strong female lead navigating divorce and a whirlwind romance that makes her question her happiness. The film tells a sincere, earnest love story that emphasizes the value of communication in relationships. Despite its Hollywood ending, the film sends an empowering message, and the chemistry between the leads is undeniable😍😍😍 I loveddd

I would give the movie a solid 8/10😍

Music: I have been listening to Justin Bieber a lot lately, thanks to TikTok😂It is amusing how we all seem to be having a secret relationship with him😂As I write this, I am listening to "That Should Be Me," followed by "Love Yourself." It is a delightful moment of delusion before snapping back into reality. Did I mention that Justin and Hailey are expecting a baby? 🥹🥹🥹I am genuinely excited for them ❤️even though I will be unable to attend the naming ceremony due to some circumstances 🤣

Book: I recently finished reading Helen Hoang's "The Heart Principle." Initially, I thought the story was stagnant, but after revisiting it, I was captivated🩷 One night, around 1 a.m., I found myself sobbing from the emotional depth of the story. The book elicited a wide range of emotions, from outrage at the characters' struggles to intense empathy for their plight. While it may not be my favorite romance, it was beautifully written and beautifully executed 😊and everything and everything 🩷I appreciate Helen Hoang's dedication to autism representation. I am eager to read more of her pieces 🩷 love love ❤️

Now, back to my studies. Thank you for letting me share my thoughts.

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